How difficult is it to win back trust for yourself, when you have already lost it twice or so to say.. ‘n’ number of times. From the other person’s perspective, we may ask as how difficult is to forgive a person twice or …again so to say ‘n’ number of times.
Ask me.. I may be the first person on earth, who has lost someone’s faith in myself, so many times as if it was a Re.1 coin. Must say, I person who has lost faith on me, so many times, is still staying with me. Knowingly or Unknowingly I break her faith, do small things which hurt her..but still do it.. God knows why.
We had a fight few days back, fought like primitive men (including women). Finally when I told her about breaking trust, that was like the last straw on the camel’s back. The fight ceased, when I told her the reason for such an act, but I was dumb enough to, not know that the reason was not sufficient enough to suffice the act. Still once again to mark an event in the history of mankind (also women), she forgave me, with a promise to not repeat that again. In the rage of anger, I was dumb enough (second time) to handover my ring to her, which is conveniently lost along with the faith.
Finally she has forgiven me, but this time I don’t think she would trust me again. But I have promised to my self that I would never such a situation occur again. (the same promise I had made, again, to myself & her, a few years or may be a few months back.) But this time I shall stand by it.
But I seriously don’t know the reason why I am so weak, Why I cannot stand for the promises that I have made. Is it a problem faced by men in general ?
For additions, I know a few men, who can never stay on their promise, and also a few who can really never break a promise,” Zaban ke liye Jaan, bhi de denge”…those kinds.
I think, I am moderate… I selectively break promises (favourable ones) but often or say most of the times or may be always the selection is wrong.
Hats off to the lady who has dedicated her life to forgive me.
I fight with her, make life miserable, annoy, never listen to her etc etc… but still she will be with me and for me.. There is absolutely no compulsion for her to stay with me, nor is the situation that she doesn’t have options or alternatives.
She bears all this and still stays !!!!!
Today when I am posting this blog, I celebrate 2 synonymous days
1. World Loser’s Day
2. World Forgiver’s Day
- Vikas Yadav
Ask me.. I may be the first person on earth, who has lost someone’s faith in myself, so many times as if it was a Re.1 coin. Must say, I person who has lost faith on me, so many times, is still staying with me. Knowingly or Unknowingly I break her faith, do small things which hurt her..but still do it.. God knows why.
We had a fight few days back, fought like primitive men (including women). Finally when I told her about breaking trust, that was like the last straw on the camel’s back. The fight ceased, when I told her the reason for such an act, but I was dumb enough to, not know that the reason was not sufficient enough to suffice the act. Still once again to mark an event in the history of mankind (also women), she forgave me, with a promise to not repeat that again. In the rage of anger, I was dumb enough (second time) to handover my ring to her, which is conveniently lost along with the faith.
Finally she has forgiven me, but this time I don’t think she would trust me again. But I have promised to my self that I would never such a situation occur again. (the same promise I had made, again, to myself & her, a few years or may be a few months back.) But this time I shall stand by it.
But I seriously don’t know the reason why I am so weak, Why I cannot stand for the promises that I have made. Is it a problem faced by men in general ?
For additions, I know a few men, who can never stay on their promise, and also a few who can really never break a promise,” Zaban ke liye Jaan, bhi de denge”…those kinds.
I think, I am moderate… I selectively break promises (favourable ones) but often or say most of the times or may be always the selection is wrong.
Hats off to the lady who has dedicated her life to forgive me.
I fight with her, make life miserable, annoy, never listen to her etc etc… but still she will be with me and for me.. There is absolutely no compulsion for her to stay with me, nor is the situation that she doesn’t have options or alternatives.
She bears all this and still stays !!!!!
Today when I am posting this blog, I celebrate 2 synonymous days
1. World Loser’s Day
2. World Forgiver’s Day
- Vikas Yadav
Comments
What u have written almost pierces the heart ....trust me on that.U can actually think of getn into writing ,a few years down the line.The feelings u have portrayed about "Mother" ----- Thumbs up for that!any1 wud agree to it.Though i dont remember Prof.Neelkanthan,I do remember the question he asked!I cud connect wid what u wrote cuz the same things happen at my place too...:-(
As far as Lost Faith & The Mirror are concerned,im happy that we all as "Couples" & as spouses,have started feeling responsible for one another.We care,We fight,But.....end of day,we need each other's shoulders.Glad to know that finally "Happy Realization" has dawned on all of us.50% tum 50%hum (adjust karen) toh life would be much easier & everything around would look beautiful & Positive!Im trying it...u guys try it too!Let the mirror & reflection NEVER BREAK!!!!Looking out for ur next one.Keep writing man!
KUDOS!!
----Snigs----
Vikas Yadav