Speaking Me

A Ray of New Hope : This is a pic of the rainbow which is often seen outside our window. Hey I am back to my mind again. Let me first apologize for not writing in for so many days. It was like, i had so many thoughts in mind, couldn't focus on one topic.  Yesterday, it felt like we have actually made  a new beginning. After a very long time we spoke to each other with open hearts. It took me time to digest this new life. I think i was just waiting for this. We went to the park for a long walk, which turned out to be a long talk and we could actually discuss and understand each other. I told her what i have been thinking for so long and she opened what was on her mind. To top it all up the weather was nice and pleasant, the location was amazing without any distractions and we had nothing else to do. We could hear more than each other.  Many a times it has happened that we used speak to each other, somehow with some distractions / distortions we couldn't understan...

For many people, I am a successful regional in-charge of a leading company. People think “Wow, this guy is always on the move, one day he is in Indore, the other in Goa and next time somewhere in a remote village of Maharashtra”. Doesn’t that sound exciting? For many of those, office bound friends of mine, this may seem a dream profile, wherein you travel so frequently, see so many new places and what not…. It was exciting for me, when I joined too. I thought wow (again), now I will have so much to write about. In my first trip, I did so very religiously and also published it. Yes I had frequent updates on my google status and people use to wonder, what a guy, he has a job which is so dynamic. They were right, there was some dynamism in my life but slowly it become monotonous. I never wrote anything after my first trip. I didn’t even bother to update my google status. Frankly speaking, I never felt the shortage of time; in fact I had ample time to write but never had the motivatio...

Yes! I am back to my original self. I have again started talking to myself. This is my third trip to Nagpur (the orange city). This time my mother has asked me to get Nagpur’s famous Orange Barfi (sweetmeat)and like always I was too busy with my work and after work I wanted sometime to relax back in my hotel room. The hotel I usually stay is Dwarka at Sitabuldi, Nagpur. Looks absolutely shady! But what to do, I am here only for a day. (Thankfully not night). But I remember, Last month  I had to spend a night at Nagpur, coz. I didn’t have train reservation for Raipur nor could find any buses to Raipur, thanks to the threat from Naxal’s, many buses from Nagpur to Raipur have been terminated. The night experience was not so bad, had a pleasant sleep but next day I had to travel from Nagpur to Jabalpur via Bus. They said it takes 4 hrs in a Volvo Bus service, but mind it, it took the entire day. At the end of the journey, I was dizzy enough to puke. But yeah that was last mont...

We have often heard that marriages are made in heaven and they are the union of two souls etc. etc. But my question to myself is “Is it really so?”.... I disbelieve or rather contradict the statement of Marriages made in heaven or they being the union of two souls. Marriage in my understanding is a union of two different worlds. Let me explain.... The groom’s side and the bride’s side even if they belong to same caste, community , religion, region etc. no matter how many similarities they possess, there always exists a difference in attitudes, behavior, motives, etc. among the two uniting families. So I simply put it as a union of two different worlds. There is always a belief that the bride has to adjust with the groom’s family, but along with it, also is seen the reverse. In order to make the bride comfortable, the groom is usually seen adapting with the in-laws. So the bride as well as the groom; both with equal amount of efforts, try to adapt to each other’s world. Even the ...

How difficult is it to win back trust for yourself, when you have already lost it twice or so to say.. ‘n’ number of times. From the other person’s perspective, we may ask as how difficult is to forgive a person twice or …again so to say ‘n’ number of times. Ask me.. I may be the first person on earth, who has lost someone’s faith in myself, so many times as if it was a Re.1 coin. Must say, I person who has lost faith on me, so many times, is still staying with me. Knowingly or Unknowingly I break her faith, do small things which hurt her..but still do it.. God knows why. We had a fight few days back, fought like primitive men (including women). Finally when I told her about breaking trust, that was like the last straw on the camel’s back. The fight ceased, when I told her the reason for such an act, but I was dumb enough to, not know that the reason was not sufficient enough to suffice the act. Still once again to mark an event in the history of mankind (also women), she forgave me...

What do you mean by a “mirror” ? … there may be several definitions in the world that define a portrait. But I have a different meaning to give.. its not great but some people might find a new meaning to their lives after knowing this. May look at people differently once they think about it  deeply. For me, mirror is that element in your life which / who reflects, the things that you do. Are these actions of yours right or wrong.  Helps you generate ideas for life. Helps you realize the best parts in you.. Sometimes also highlights the defects in you. Sometimes show you, the real person in you but sometimes hides the real person, only to motivate you to keep on going in life. It does all things for you, but you never bother about the mirror… becoz you feel that after all its just a reflection of yours.. You feel that, If you are better off.. the mirror would be fine. The mirror never complains.. nor does it stop doing its work.. albeit it tries to be better each time..Bu...

Today, when I woke up, the first thing that came to my mind was....BREAKFAST..What would have Mom made for breakfast, had a deep urge of having "poha" (Spicy rice flakes with onion and potato pieces). Completed my daily routine, at full luxury (as on weekdays, I have to do everything in a hurry..reason; new reporting time in office 8:00AM, since 25th November 2009 .my 24th Birthday - should have been a day of new beginning, I mean new time of beginning for me.. lol).  Climbing down the steps from my room, I heard my dad say,"Why waste so much money, this time of the year there is not much income." this was about the celebrating my birthday, I had postponed the celebration to today evening as my sister was in Goa on 25th Nov. My Mom saw me hearing that an quickly responded to me saying that, Dad's health is not great to go out for dinner, so lets just cook your favourite Biryani, Tandoori Chicken and some kebabs at home. I responded immediately that because o...